Sunday, 30 November 2014 | 17:14 | 0 sweethearts
"And now that the odds against it all,"
Oh wait, how many times already did I posted abt love-thingy? I mean a whole post about it. Not to mention my random-rojak-campur post yang huru hara tu la. Berapa kali eh?
Aku tak ingat hahahaha.
Of what happen to me lately, I mean yah about my feelings, I ummmm I won't talk abt it somehow :p
And to be honestly my denial state is on for this moment.
So if you're talking about me, or pointed out towards me. I'm sorry but I wont be able to think that it was for me.
Because being like "oh yeke who's that girl you're talking about? Well obviously not me.. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯" is fcking easier than hoping it was about me pastu rupanya bukan pastu heartbroken cam orang gila.
Walaupun sebenarnya aku terganggu lah jugak wahahaha but well, imma living with this poker face for years so yeah whatever.
And I'm trying to be a better me. The optimistic zakiah zaki yay! XD Trying to husnudzon in every ways. Walaupun kengkadang asyik nak pikir jahat je :b but yeah at least I'm trying, kan?
We haven't contact each other for weeks, ey?
Am I supposed to throw a tantrum, get angry and cursed around? Or thinking about "why you no contact me you don't like me anymoreeeeeeeee oh oh maybe you have another girl damn youuuuuuuuuuuuuuu!"?
Acting like a crazy girl crying upon her lost soulmate?
Kalau dulu ye.
Zaman jahiliah lol. :'D
Sekarang tak. Yes, I'm acting matured. Rational. Sebab kalau dah keluar sekolah dok unibersiti pun perangai tak berubah pun susah lah.
Lagipun, try to look on the bright side. Yang jauh tu siapa? Kita. Yes. Yang gerakkan hati untuk berjauhan tu siapa? Tuhan kita. Allah jauhkan sebab Dia nak jaga. Allah jauhkan sebab Dia sayang. Conclusion = Allah sayang kita.
This is my simple way of thinking. :)
Put your trust in Him, He knows what is the best. For us.
See? Sape kata semua budak-budak uitm hancur haaa haaaa? :D
Tapi tipu lah kalau tak rasa apa. Tak sedih tak terkilan or whatsoever. Kalau sedih pun takkan lah nak bersedih je sepanjang masa kan? Nangis meratap? Whoaaaa that's so not me. Tak bagus tau cenggitu. Hilang keanggunan nanti ahaks :3
Aku seronok bila tengok kawan-kawan aku ada crush or whatsoever. Talking about their love ones. Eventho biasanya bila dorang open table pasal benda tu aku tak bagi reaksi apa pun dalam group, but I read it. All those conversations. I'm praying the best for my babes. I always do :*
Dah besar dah anak-anak mak ni ye tskkkk... /lap lap air mata/
Tapi bila orang tanya pasal aku.... Well...
Till then ebelibadi
P/s I dreamt about you yesterday. Yes, I know you're missing me. You dont have to tell me I know I know /tepuk tepuk bahu/ :p