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Tuesday, 15 October 2013 | 17:19 | 0 sweethearts
ASSALAMUALAIKUM 

so act aku tak sepatutnya on blog sekarang. yeah, should be studying because SPM is just aroundddd the corner. but i can't hold it anymore.

this is only the beginning.

what did you feel if someone you love turn away from you and leave you all alone by yourself? and he didn't even tell you why's. what?

hurt. 
ya, this time, it hurts much and much.

i never taught that he'll leave me. aku tak tau apa salah aku sekarang.. plus, masa dekat-dekat nak exam ni.. SPM weh SPM. kadang-kadang bila aku terjumpa dia kat sekolah, aku patah balik and menangis. all i could do now is cry and cry. crying till my tears had dried. 

maybe aku terlau rapat dengan budak laki kot. yah, lately aku rapat dengan hariz. we used to sit by side. tapi tu bukan salah aku. that time dia yang duduk kat situ. takkan tetiba aku nak melenting bangun? pastu duduk sebelah peklok. sebab tu je tempat kosong lagi satu. lagilah tak kan. he's my mentor, though. dia ajar aku chemist. i'm not doing anything with him. kat library, the whole group, (my group) saw it. and tak sentuh pun, okay? 

tapi tu je la, dengan budak laki lain? haram jadah siap ada yang hambar kan aku depan orang ramai kot. sampai aku menangis. dalam diam. am i that useless, that hideous till everyone, like everybody hurts me? i'm crying everyday. and do they care? they don't. NEVER.

sekarang ni, aku taktau apa yang aku rasa. aku tak nak berendam dengan sape-sape. SPM dah nak dekat.. hablu mina nnas, jaga hubungan dengan manusia. i've tried. do they? aku bukan manusia eh?

semua orang tinggal kan aku sekarang. 

takpe. 

dah biasa.

aku minta maaf kalau lepas ni semua benda berubah. i couldn't help myself. sorry.

you love her, isn't it?
you never talk about Bruno Mars so much time before. 
the way you talk to her.
the way you assembled the presents that night.
the way you give her chocolates.

the way you said you didn't love me like you did yesterday.

the way you run away from me.
the way you hu,iliated me.
the way you looked at me synically when i smile at you.
yet the way you did not even look at my face.

AM I THAT ANNOYING?

now, i cry.




assalamualaikum


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